Your Life Is My Death

Another desperate night
Can’t get my head around
Your list with all my crimes
Stare at the wall, calling your name
I know you’re still not sleeping
But I’m not sure you hear me…
For all the times you cried
How I must change my life
You can’t stand seeing me writhe
It’ll take more time
To find you again
I’m waiting for that Thursday
But there’s one thing that stops me:

Your life is my death but if i
need to decide
I will stay, stay
You may dislike, but i stand my
Ground and i won’t get away, away

day and night,
In and out
I feel like I’m running round and round
“Just one more time” -
With my mouth so dry
I know I ask for this every time
But you seem so fine
With your new-found pride
When we could have had a whole lifetime
But you expect me now
Just to get by
With old photographs and regretful sighs
You’re my shrine
But I know I
Built you once on blood-stained ground
If I look outside
At the melting sky
Is that the sign how I lose my mind?
Well, I had died
So many times
So what’s the deal if I’m straight or a liar?
So take my life,
You decide
How to stop this, cause I need to stop now

You say, “I want to see you try
Either/or, I don’t mind”
With an obnoxious smile
It seems you’re convinced, I was born yesterday
You add – it’s worth living
But there’s one thing that concerns me:

Your life is my death and I might add
Even if I go insane
No one sees why
I won’t move despite
Our life leads me to the grave, grave